I have jokingly called the last few months my quarter life crisis…of sorts.  Living in Hawaii was a bit of a blessing and a curse.  A job I hated with every fiber of my being, yet I was living in paradise.  Although paradise was filled with crime, crack heads, and exorbitant living costs it really wasn’t so bad.

When I was little and I would ask my parents about a decision I had to make and it was generally right or wrong, black or white.  Was it the wrong thing to blow all my money on some trivial, whimsical purchase?  Yes.  Was it the right thing to do to write a gift card for that Christmas present?  Yes.

But the older I get the more the lines get blurred.  Could I have stuck it out in Hawaii?  Absolutely, but I would have been scraping by and be poor (as usual).  Did I want to leave paradise to go home and work the most physically demanding job I know?  Not particularly, but it would be the responsible decision.  With the lines blurry there is no perfect decision, just the one you pick.  I thought long and hard and pondered what my goals are and the things that truly make me happy.

I picked to give up island life, move back to NY and be “responsible”.   Having been home for a little under a week I can say I absolutely made the best decision for me.  Being home, seeing friends and family is something I always cherish and has been great. It also helps to balance and help re-solidify my goals.

Now, a bit more centered, I will be putting my head down and working HARD for the next few months.  After nearly three years away from tree work I am going back, I’m looking forwards to working out doors and NOT having to put up with whiny, bitchy customers in a restaurant.

So from the golden beaches of Maui to the not so golden beaches of NY, I will leave you with a picture of the latter.

Sunset Bay

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